Finding Myself in The Things That I Write.

I’ve had this personal site of mine for over a year now, and I have to say it has been one of the best investments of my college endeavor. I never really explained in detail why I chose this sort of outlet as the outlet of 2019… However, I’ll make a reasonable attempt in that fashion.

If I were in the presence of eighteen-year-old Josh, I would tell him that this level of content and reason would be an esteemed staple when he would be in his early twenties. That being in touch with his self-awareness, an untapped spirit that is hidden waiting on itself to emerge out of its shell. That the Love of Quality Time envelops the fear of loneliness and apparition-like feelings, moreover, this platform of vocality cannot fake itself in its existence. I never thought that writing itself would take me to a multitude of independent and indifferent avenues. I found the influence through the inspiration of blogging from my dear friend Jennifer, so here I am taking advantage of the site for the amount of money that I paid, which hurt like hell in the yearly subscription haha. However, with the money that I worked tirelessly through late nights, I had the upper hand in creating a bigger picture for myself. Here I was able to discover the innovation of creativity through honest interactions of individuals and the everyday occurrences of human activity where Coffee Shop Talks through sips of hot or iced drinks had me in complete awe of every outcome after the reciprocity of relevance and feelings. In this, this is where I read inspiration after inspiration of other people’s work to find new topics to flourish in a commodity, along with listening to YouTube subscriptions of Majestic Casual, Escape Tracks, and anything that gives the flow of artistry gave the chemicals in my brain to work diligently in an upbeat matter. Innovation with Photography, accrued traditional tattoos for over the past two years is one thing that all go in collectiveness, but the experimental craft of words of informing, telling a story, convince a whole lot.

However, what has been the takeaway from a year of lessons, heartbreak, reconnecting with life, the cosmic capability of Love, awareness, and many others that made me feel uncomfortable yet warm?
In all the given honesty, I’m not entirely sure. Sounds terrifying to say the very least.

This blog, myself importantly, will always be a work in progress, with beckoning questions and answers that will arise through said everyday experiences. In reality, no one has the answers to life’s purpose and reasoning. There is so much that I will never understand, and what I have been a witness to on the face of the world has led to inquire said life’s purpose. But there is indeed something sacred in the chaos: spiritual, and although it continually is unclear to me, I can’t help but be aware of its power. I firmly believe that certain changes in specific misconstrued ideas of uncertainty, unsightly fears sets a determination of civil unrest and inadvertent separation of mind, body, and soul. Not being able to address the obstacles of the unknown can accumulate stressors where we become so accustomed to the uncomfortable. The challenges that make us uncomfortable with ourselves should not cast astray when we are afraid. These challenges, healthy for what I consider, create something more for ourselves and can unlock a plethora of segments, and living in everyday fear and isolation from that only hinders growth for something more than subsistence. So, with all this announced, these instances of finding myself through writing, interactions with humans, the world itself, myself even, fabricate a pilgrimage for that small measure of peace.

I look forward to discoveries, driven revolutionary coffee shop work, strive for truthful exchanges of conversations, the impetus, and onus of continuing the journey within.

Thank you,

Josh

Water Lantern Festival: It Happened!

Hi there! The tumultuous wait finally came to an end!  The title pretty much tells you what this blog will be about. I got to indulge and immerse myself in a moment of lanterened lights; lanterened lights that shared quotes, stories, letters, and artistic value.

This festival served as a continuation as one of my dear friends Destine’s birthday present(s). I made my way down to San Jose to pick her up and then proceeded to down South where the festival was taking place. Parking was a hassle and chore to find but we managed to scoop a good spot. We checked in at the park and recieved our date night special package and found a good spot to work on our lanterns. At first, I was skeptical on how to even go about the creative and artistic process let alone justify it entirely; however, I reevaluated on what I believe that I do best to undergo this: writing letters. Since the lantern is supposed to have four sides, I dedicated each side towards four themes in letter format.

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The first side was a letter to my future self, the second, a letter to my Hopes & Dreams, the third to my Fears, and the fourth to those in my corner.
Destine and I proceeded to the lake to launch our completed lanterns together during the cover of darkness and then took some time for individual reflections.

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Once the lantersn floated away everything at that point felt cosmic and dreamlike. It was more than just immersing in a Disney Tangled moment. From here I witnessed value and power in a matter of a couple of hours spent. In all of this, this is where the acceptance of honor settled over shame — healing enfolded over the hurt.  Negative contexts rendered nonexistent. Where vulnerability, validation, reciprocation, most importantly Love triumphed over the place of hate that prospered in the coexistence.
I’ve shared with a few amounts of people that my end-goal in life is to find a small measure of peace, something which few people ever discover, and that last night was just one of the pertinent steps in achieving that eminence.
Either way, I wouldn’t want to experience this kind of encounter any other way, and I am beyond the terms of humbled for this.

Thank you all,

Josh